The One Where I Quit + Songs That Got Me Through It

Hey you guys, what's up?

  This week was my last week working for CNA (An English School in Brazil) I can't tell ya how much I've dreamed with this day and when it finally came I was so overwhelmed with everything I had to do that I couldn't enjoy it properly but I was aware of what was happening I just couldn't be fully happy with it because saying goodbye to my students was harder than I thought. But I got through this because the truth is, no matter how much we love what we do, it's not always about that, we need more, we need to grow and when we feel unappreciated we ought to do something about it and that's what I did.

  I was never good at goodbyes, for one simple reason, we don't need farewells, if you really want to stay in touch and still have some meaning in someone's life you absolutely can do it. On the other hand I understand that separation can be hard for some people. Since I had to do it every semester I found a way to cope with it. My students make each semester harder and harder for me... this semester for instance (in particular was special because it was the last for me) They wrote letters, they praised my work and the person I am, they wished me good things and one group even made a little surprise party for my upcoming birthday.

  It couldn't be any better. I quit that job with a sense of job done. Before I started working there I had my goals as a professional mainly things I wanted to get better and things that I wanted to learn, luckily I was able to learn it all and much more, I've done and gone through things I didn't expect AT ALL. Once again I had to face mean and dishonest people and what's even worse work close to them. It was the hardest thing I had to do, I also had to see great people leaving because they had enough of the injustices that was going on there, I knew I had to stuck around so I made friends, I was kind and professional with everybody I focused on  my work and built the career I wanted. I know I left that place as a better person and professional which was my goal from the very beginning.

  I had to pretend I was blind to all the stuff happening at the backstage and every time I entered those doors I felt sick to my stomach to think about the weight I was carrying with me until I decided to let it go and set myself free from all of it. I learned how to separate my personal and professional life. I learned how to deal with people I didn't want to deal with in the first place. I learned that when we have a goal nothing is strong enough to know us down, we might trip but we get up, recalculate the route and keep walking. "How did you cope with it?" You may ask and the answer is very simple. Self-awareness, in order to understand people and circumstances you gotta know yourself better than everybody else that way nobody can deceive you or manipulate you. I also meditated a lot to connect better with my feelings and it was extremely helpful and finally I'll share with you the playlist I'd listen to every day on my way to work to give me strength for the day and boost my energy:

1. Bet On It - High School Musical
2. Defying Gravity - Wicked
4.Titanium - Sia
5. Big Girls Cry - Sia
6. Million Reasons - Lady Gaga
7. All That I'm Living For - Evanescence 
8. Can't Back Down - Camp Rock
9. Diamond Heart - Lady Gaga
10. Everybody Hurts - Avril Lavigne 
11. Let It Go - Frozen
12. Hard Times - Paramore
13. It's Not Right But It's Okay - Whitney Houston
14. Just Another Day - Lady Gaga
15. Soap - Melanie Martinez
16. New Rules - Dua Lipa
17. Pacify Her - Melanie Martinez
18. Perfect Illusion - Lady Gaga
19. Praying - Kesha 
20. Reaper - Sia

That's All Folks,

Much Love,

Douglas Migliassi